Jolly-oh-goody!

HI! Yes, HI!

I am currently trying to pack... And it's 3.04am.

Leaving for my second trip to Melacca this holiday. I love it there. It's nice to go somewhere where you know nobody, and be a total 'amoh' tourist!

This time, the boyfriend is coming along. So this shall be interesting.

We're driving down! So it'll be nice and relaxed!

OH. Yes, the whole point of this post was the share the excitement inside me.

I HAVE A LICENSE TO DRIVE!

you can only IMAGINE the things i went through today.

being at the JPJ and everything being in BM. Yet, i used my secret skills of the understanding of the language to get myself through the whole thing!

Best part, this is the FIRST time i did the exam. *pheeeeeew!*

It's over!

Okay, i need to paint my nails.

Settle my bag.
Sleep perhaps.

Okay.

Maybe i just need SLEEP?

I'm in need of a pump... that i know i'll never get.

I.HATE.THIS.FEELING.

i can no longer fake a smile.. tears jerk.

where did MY heart go missing?

ARGG. i hate this feeling.

i get it so freakin' many times.

it's as if i don't have feelings. littereally. I feel numb.

I can't even pin point the problem myself. I don't know what's actually BUGGING me... but i feel bugged.

Maybe it's my time of the month? Perhaps?

Why am i so emotional. GOSH.

I wanna snap out of it.

I just feel like avoiding everyone every thing and anything.. haaay.

This sucks.

Hopefully blogging this will help? Maybe?

Blogging is theraputic.

So blog, cure me. Ha.

I need something. Wish for something. But... i give up on that.

Cause there's no need for wishing.

Up til now, i agree with a song someone sent me. Where did your heart go missing by Rooney.

But, the person who sent it to me, is a jackass. But credits to him for sending a song that represents me. Ha.

perhaps.

maybe we're avoiding the serious things.

maybe this time around we're shoving the important off.

but that makes me question... how will we deal with it when it comes.

wish you could just do things without me wishing you would do them for me.

i have to always S.P.E.L.L it out for you.

wish.

I wait here hoping you'd come online.

knowing i'm out of things to do. i pretend i'm okay, but what i really need to know is that you'll be there when i need you.

tired of doing the calling. tired of putting my foot in first.

you're always busy even when your free.

i'm in a loop.

Hiding.

It's 3.52... and i'm awake.

Crashed at 11, but then woke and now i can't sleep.

My throat is closing up and right now.. i can't taste the nutella i am eating with a spoon.

I should probably study.

But, now i'm tired.

I am physically and mentally tired.

Wish i had the weekend to study. But, work is work. Gotta do what i got to do.

All i need right now, is that somebody to tell me everything is going to be okay.

Craig, i miss you.

I miss the positivity you brought. I can't stop thinking about you. And the simple things you did to make me smile. Everything reminds me of you.