My chest is clear...

Currently : Trying to sort out radio mumbo jumbo!

Listening to: You - The Pretty Reckless.

Life, is good now.

I am content with a lot of things. And as much as i wish i could un-complicate things, i have realized that there is no such thing.

We need the complications in life... cause, well... that's life.

It's a growing process.

And i'm tired of my college life being a carbon copy of high school.

One minute we're all friends, then one turns around, then two people, then three... we're degrading.

So it stops here.

Things are happening again, and i am happy.

This time, i am happy within, and i don't want to reveal because it only causes problems.

Time passes fast, why waste it.

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I'm sleepy, thank you.

exhaaaausted.

I am TIRED.

but, i had a very good workout today.

followed by pampering in the sauna.

and then a hearty subway dinner... tuned with an episode of HOUSE.

Now, that's what you call a good saturday evening.

Tomorrow, i'm sleeping in.

Tonight, i'm staying up.

Yes.

nyehe.kthanksbye.

therapy.

I've become addicted to coffee.

paddle

Day two of exam is down.
And so is my mood.

I've been away from the internet for awhile, so things haven't been see.

But, today.. i felt the worst.

I saw what i never wanted to see.

I told myself that it was going to happen, but when it did.. i still broke down.

Don't know what hurts more, the accusations, or the plain

pain that each memory never meant something.

I don't care if you read this.

I AM HURT.

to the core.

And, you never realized. You never see it. Why? When i see you, i pretend that things are okay, but they aren't.

I tell myself i don't care, but i do.

Because for nearly 5 years, i was at your door. At your support.. and where were you?

All i got was hits about how my efforts were not needed. How i expected too much?

But not once, did i ask for anything back.

So fine.

I stayed silent.

I am still saying silent.

At least you found good company. And i'm happy for you. Everyone needs good company.

I'm blowing out these candles, these memories, these efforts.

Hey eh, oohohhh!

"I just wanna let it go for tonight, that'll be the best therapy for meeee!"

• clear room (seriously)
• hire a mosquito bounty hunter.
• run... gym... run.
• STUDY (first an foremost)
• dance my sorrow away (in my room if i have to)
• dye hair red... well, brighter red.
• get my tattoo done.
• pierce my ear. (i think i'll do that tomorrow, if i find the time)
• watch old films for a whole day. Audrey ofcourse.
• delete junk on batmac.
• tell people i love them, daily.
• go to the beach, for a tan.
• read my books...yes, all of them.
• spend alone time.
• prepare the surprise for Bill.
• download more great tunes.
• go swimming.
• plan my holiday for next year.
• eat a bucket of cheese.
• drink milo at ABU! (and eat nasi lemak goreeeeng!)

Yes, thats all for now.

In time, i lost friends.

Best friends... over stupid things.

These three girls, have stuck with me through my bad, my good, my everything. We fight. We get annoyed. Yet, when in need, we'll go to each other. What i love more, they never judged me ONE bit.

Friends are hard to find. And painful to loose.

I'm tired.

I think all i ever complain about is being exhausted.

Well, once again, I"M EXHAUSTED... then again, i have energy.

I just need the drive.

(and my drive is in KL... teehee)

Well, radio was fun today for once.

Though, i am against my lecturer in all ways, i gotta look past his annoying self.

I keep getting hungry and wanting to snack, i'm going to gain weight soon.

Exam times are always like this. Geeee.

I want a nice break again.

Today, people made my day. I feel appreciated. (and it's been awhile since i felt that way)

Strangers even made my day.

Ohkay, i'm lazy to type.

Just felt like... blogging. Merry Christmas!