Let's talk about friendship.

I've been holding this post up for awhile now. And now, i am sitting in my living room alone, with the TV on mute, music playing... and munching on some tomatoes.

I finally have the MOOD.

Friendship.

Now, that's a tough subject, but a subject that i think ALL of us can relate to. Am i right?

What exactly is friendship?

Is it a random 'hi' and wave every time you see each other? Or is it being able to talk to a person for more than 30minutes without being bored.

I think we have ALL faced a friendship problem. I pretty damn sure we have.

One minute someone could be your closest friend that you share every hearty secret with, and the next.. they're our worst enemy

It's sad really how fast a friendship shatters for the STUPIDEST reasons ever known. And you look back, and think... how the hell did we end up here?

But, i guess that life. People will always come and go. And sometimes, it'll leave a big mark or scar from the pain. None the less, we learn.

I have learnt this painful lesson many times. I have let MANY people into my life, and i let them shatter my emotions, my hopes and my dreams.

I put my friends before anyone else. I run the race for them. I do all of this, and at the end of the day i get the same outcome.

Well, now i have decided that i will not do this anymore. I mean, if i sunk myself so low for others, what's the point if it goes no where?

I'm sick of the word "best friends". It's a LABEL. Don't take it serious. Best friend means GOOD friend, just using different words. But, using "best friend" makes it seem that you are a in a committed marriage for friendship.

I don't want to be held down anymore.

I am fed up with the burdens i hold.

The guilt i feel, is useless.

There are just some friends that will never full understand you. Infact, NO ONE can understand you, but yourself.

Judging brings you no where, but we are all victims of judging. there's no stopping.

So judge me, judge who i've become. Because i am happier in the atmosphere that i bask in now, then i was before. You don't like me, that your fucking problem, not mine. ;)

I'm done making the efforts... let me dream and live for now. and let me SMILE all i want.

Thankyou.Haveanicenight.

Oh, excuse the spelling mistakes, i was on a roll and lazy to read back!